1 point: Me 0 points:Bipolar

Posted: April 1, 2015 in Bipolar Disorder, Life and the Pursuit of Balance & Happiness
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Day after day, week after week, month after month, I battle this illness. Somedays it wins, somedays I do. But everyday of every week or every month has one common denominator- I keep fighting, I never give up!  Over the past few weeks I’ve been working on taking parts of my life back, the parts of my life that have been changed by this illness. In the ten months since my breakdown and diagnosis a lot of areas of my life have suffered. I’ve become very antisocial and reclusive. Things I once enjoyed such as shopping and long drives I now dread and sometimes fear. I’ve let my appearance go a lot as the weight piled on. So much of my life, of me, that I no longer recognize, and I’ve been slowly working to recover some of what used to be.   This past weekend I actually got dressed up and went out. To an actual party. With actual people! Given it was a small house party with maybe 20 people but that’s not the point. The point is- I did it! Without anxiety or fear. I stayed until late, talked to friends, had a few drinks, and had a good time. I was quite proud of myself afterwards and feel that this is definitely a step in the right direction.  

This coming weekend I am taking another step. A big step! I have a very close friend who lives in the city, a 3 hour drive from my hometown. I see her often during the summer months, but haven’t been to visit since then, August to be exact. We’ve been really missing each other and I’ve been wanting to go for a visit. So what’s stopping me?

For starters, I don’t drive alone, almost anywhere but most certainly not on the highway. 

Secondly, it’s a 3 hour drive. In my small car. For 3 whole hours. I’m not sure my extremities can stay still for that long! 

And third….see numbers 1 and 2!  

 

So this weekend I am going to put all of my anxieties aside and take that step! I’m going on my first ever road trip alone and spending a few days with my girl! 

Another point for me, still zero for Bipolar!!

  

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  1. That is great! Hope you have a fantastic trip.

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